"The first lie is unconditional love" - Susan Lynne Schwenger (1974)

Have you come back to me to play ?

Your voice
it is still stuffed full
of your own special magic

It came back
into this life
to meet, and to greet me

In its old,
yet, in its
familiar ways

It was as if, there were parts of you
still swirling around
deeply inside of me

Have you come back
to me,
to play ?

Would I dare,
to reach out
just to touch you ?

What kind of words,
would i have
to say ?

How well iT iS, that I remember
all those times that you
came back home to me

Two old souls
who truly knew
how iT iS, to play

There has always
lurked deeply
inside of me

These old magical pieces
of your Great Spirit
given light

They still swirl
around deeply
inside of me

They are a part of you
that i can still
shine bright

Would i dare,
to send out words
that might touch you ?

What type of words
would i have
to say ?

Or, iS iT just far better
to suppress
these old golden memories

When this old heart of mine
feels open
yet safe, to play ?

There were so many times
you sailed off
without me

As, i sat,
and, i watched you disappear
off into the sun

I remember, how I dreaded
all those days
of your departures

When, the ways of all
of those old worlds
so often, just stole away,
all of our fun

There were special times
within those empty evenings

When sitting quietly alone
under the bright light
of the moon

That your spirit,
put on its wings
and, it flew back to me

Delivering your special messages
that you would be coming back to me, soon

There are still,
so many songs
that have been just sitting around

patiently
awaiting their chance
to finally get sung

So very deep within me
lives on
our old magical memories

They are like bells,
that have been waiting
so very long, to be rung

Many times sitting here,
all alone
without you

Like the sky,
I have oft times,
felt so very blue

On saturday feb 10/2018
I did go,
and, put myself out there

on facebook
where i gave you
my connection on a dot com

the13thbridge@aol.com,
was how
you found me

thank The Great Mystery,
you had something
with ROM

Now, I know,
you could choose
to ignore this

And, if you did,
you would still be
my friend

For two old fools
who have oft times,
traveled together

Their old magic,
iT can just never know
nor, come to find, The End

iT iS, through my old heart memories
that i have taken the time
to write this

To another old fool,
who might care
to share

some more amazing times
and,
incredible bliss

Sitting here,
i am still able
to remember you

that amazing force,
of your gentle,
yet powerful embrace

Sitting here,
i am,
still able to remember

that amazing force,
of your sweet,
yet incredible kiss

So, do i take a big chance,
by sending this
through the ethers ?

Sealing it all
with my old
yet, my strangely familiar kiss

Perhaps your "spirit"
will "relish"
some more "moments"

iF something special,
was stirred up
from within !!!

Be a piece of peace ---

Susan Lynne Schwenger
AKA The eXchanger

AKA Wassenakoshka Anang
~ Wassenakoshka Gisiis Kwe
which translates into English as: Bright Shining Star
~ Bright Shining Sun Woman

AKA ~Kit'si'nu
(She is bright like the sun,
like the stars)

 

ONE THIRTY SIX & ELEVEN -- 1:36:11 pm

Back to me, you came

in this amazing flicker of your light

You made September 22nd ,

Two thousand and eleven,

a day that was bright

Totally amazing

that two old familiar fools

would come again, to pass

To reconnect with each other

through their looking glass

The time on the clock

it was set at one thirty six

& the seconds of eleven

It made me feel

like i would soon be able

to head off to heaven

Your familiar eyes,

they still sparkled,

and, they still did hold your glow

When you sent me

your first eXchange

my heart it did stop

and, how I did stare

into a face

that held a pair of eyes

strangely familiar

oh, so rare

That amazing thoughts

started stirring within me

had i found a lost pair ?

How we can laugh, and,

talk about so many things

so many topics

so far, so wide

That our shared thoughts & realities

often just take on their own wings

so they may glide

Too long, i have danced alone

with the sadness

i have felt loss,

been, so alone

Roamed the earth,

and, have wandered

searching in all ways,

always searching,

for you

all on my own

Here we are again

with the free will

to risk, to love

to further exchange

our delights

Since, you re_entered my life

within that

amazing flicker

of your light

Be a piece of peace ---

Susan Lynne Schwenger
AKA The eXchanger

AKA Wassenakoshka Anang
~ Wassenakoshka Gisiis Kwe
which translates into English as: Bright Shining Star
~ Bright Shining Sun Woman

AKA ~Kit'si'nu
(She is bright like the sun,
like the stars)

 

iT STiLL FLOWS...iT STiLL GLOWS

Beyond 3D

we do NOT dance it alone

Beyond 3D

we still blend, we still tone

Always, and, in All Ways,

it is positive, it still flows

The eXchange of two
old familiar eXchangers

who come back together,
to sing, to dance

The eXchange of two
old familiar eXchangers

united deep,
within a blissful shared trance

Always, and, in All Ways,

it is positive, it still glows

For, whatever once was,
it always, still is

Days spent together,
we sealed with a kiss

For, whatever once was,
it always, still is

For, it is, from being without you,
i know a 'true' miss

Always, and, in All Ways

it is positive, it still flows

Memories of the power of your fingers, or, your tender embrance, and, kiss

Memories of your scent,
brings forth, so much, i do miss

Remembering your touch,
the awesome force of a shared embrace

Makes me hungry, to stand again
in front of you,

coming back, face to face

Always, and, in All Ways

it is positive, it still glows

An eXchange of sharing

where 'the much' gathers 'the more'

where a sharing is NOT halved

but doubles,

and, is so much more

Always, and, in All Ways

it is positive, it flows

It is, the 'old path'

that has brought us both back
to dance,
within a shared round

to see, just eXactly,
what there is,
to be found

Always, and, in All Ways

it is positive, it still glows

(my stab, at a 4 minute poem)

Be a piece of peace ---

Susan Lynne Schwenger
AKA The eXchanger

AKA Wassenakoshka Anang
~ Wassenakoshka Gisiis Kwe
which translates into English as: Bright Shining Star
~ Bright Shining Sun Woman

AKA ~Kit'si'nu
(She is bright like the sun,
like the stars)

 

The Dance with Sadness

So here, we are

we dance here, alone

Safely holding those old pieces of you

hidden deeply, beneath my breasts

Those original golden threads

we spun together,

have NOT tarnished

they still form a very unique tapestry.

Those incredible sparks

we ignited together

are still a blazing fire

one, we still do tend

deep within my heart

your magic

it still lives on in there

it is all, that you are to me

it is all, that, we are to each other

it is there, in that place

that we come to celebrate, YOU

it is there, in that place

that we come to embrace, YOU

from that place

there still lives

our shared magic

in that special place

where two essences

still show up

to remember

they still meet each other

in their dream time

to dance

if only,

for a few brief moments

we can still feel, we can still touch

for that essence of you,

is still a part of me

one that still shines forever

one that still shines bright

it is here, in this place

we can feel you,

we can touch you

just, as if, it is,

still all real

here you are, we know it,

we can feel it

For you dance on,

deep within me

these pieces of your Great Spirit

given light

it is the place,

that we escape to

it is the place,

of out great retreat

To Dance, To Dream

To Create, To Realize

That another time is coming

That day, we will re - meet

11 NOV 1987 3;33

*****************************

SUMMARY:

You, asked me,
"how do you make love stay?"

Rope...
you give them plenty of rope,
and, hope they do NOT hang themselves

you allow, them,
to be them
and, they allow you,
to be you
and, if per chance,
you find each other
all is, as, all can be,
Wonderful, and, wUnder_FULL again

there's a tree outside
my front door
it's there for a reason
i hang, all my troubles out there
i do NOT bring them inside

i give, the best, i can
all of me, and, hold nothing back

i eXchange, only, with those
who are ready, willing, and, able
to do, the same, sort of thing

i love, always,
and, in all ways
the best i can
it is NEVER a requirement
they love me back

i do NOT believe in unconditional love
especially, in a 3D world
everything in lower vibrations
has conditions

low energetic exchange-is dismissed

high energetic exchange-is welcomed

if someone treats me poorly
it is NOT necessary to love them
it is necessary only
to release, and, forgive them
and, let them go
to, send them some energy
that points them
in the direction of
good energy
its colour,
its frequency,
its light,
its sound,
its tone,
its vibation,
which equals ~ pure love

i am a deep well,
but, NOT one,
that will be drained.

i strive to create good conditions,
that express love,
in it's totality

i look for another,
who is already doing
the same thing

i give space,
and, i expect space

i let another be,
authentically them,
i do NOT change others

i expect another,
to let me be,
authentically, me

i respect the free_will of choice

i am open to change

living in love,
with love
is win-win, and
appreciation, caring, kindness,
and, thoughtfulness

are the 4 pillars,
that hold it ALL up

i give willingly, and
share what i can
within reason

yes, i do utilise my intellect & mind,
as, well, as, my emotions & heart

i do NOT look for a "free_ride"
nor, do i expect a "free_ride"...
free, oft times,
has the highest of hidden cost

i invest into the things
i do, by giving it,
the best i can

i look for someone
who can be the driver
and, be the passenger too

it gets tiring
being the only,
driver

i look into the mirrors
that are presented to me
and, to see, very deeply
what they show me

i look very deeply into the eyes
that are presented to me
and, to see, that they already
have a heart
and, it is already
at home

where, i see,
no heart
i try to help them see mine

i look deeply, to find,
the golden strings
the threads of connection
the ones
that once before
a long time ago
where a stitch in many times
& are part of a grand tapestry
we woove together before

and, realize,
it is possible
to pick up the strings
exactly,
where we left off
and, we do it
together, in love

i push only,
when two people
are pushing on the same side
and, doing so in the same direction

i pull only,
my share,
of any load

i expect another,
will pull,
their share

albeit, there will be times

when, i do all the pulling

and, there will be times

they do all the pulling

but, it is those times

they will do, or, i will do

because, we are doing it

in love

-- and, the other truly needs us,
and,both of us,
are in our higher hearts

perhaps, that is compassionate love
the knowing, that at all times
it is NOT possible,
for another
to bring equal measures

I search for a banquet
hoping, we do NOT bring,
all the same things to the table

that there will be
living, loving, and, learning- expansion and, growth

i believe, a life shared
is never halved, but it doubled

i get up expecting a good day
and, generally get it

i do nice things for others
willing to put,
their needs, and, desires
ahead of my own, however,
i am NOT anyones fool

albeit, i am a silly old fool,
who understands that journey,
quite well

i avoid people, full of "wants"...
if they can NOT handle their own life
i know, it will become me
playing a baby sitter

needs must be met
& desires fulfilled

those who want stuff
those who need you,
only to fill,
their desires
and, once, you do
they disappear, or are gone

i avoid those types of people

To live a happy, and, joyful life...
it is only important
that needs are met
and, desires are fulfilled
and, that leaves NOTHING to want for

i love to surprise people
i am NOT big
on giving, on giving days

as, i believe, everyday
is a day to give

i do NOT give to get,
nor, expect to get
so, i am rarely let down

if someone takes, and, leaves
i bless that moment

for in it,
the taking, is stopped
the draining, is NO more

sure, i count my losses
calculate & learn from my lesson
and, let it go --
I release it, and, forgive it
and, be thankful
it is less draining NOW
that the taking has stopped

and, it is good
since, the taking can exist NO more
and, i celebrate my freedom

i love to post or send things,
to others,
that make them "hOWL" with laughter

or....make them curious
or....make them happy
or....make them ponder/or think

actually, in truth;
i send them things
that are reflective of me,
and, my world

in a few lines --

it is, to be, and, reflect me,
as, best i can

and, if, per_chance
they see me, as, i truly am

then, all, will be,
as, all should be

together
the two of us

will always be more,
rather than, ever be less

together
the two of us

might weave golden strings
through the higher mind & higher heart of one another
so, that, when we do show up

they will know, and, i will know

they will see, and, i will see

and, they will sense me,
and, i will sense them

deeply inside
that we both will know

who we are, and, be glad
that we have returned

to pick up the threads
and, spin them all golden again

Perhaps, then, The Dance with Sadness,
will truly come to its end.

Where the pain of starting again,
is less, than,
the memory of the pain involved,
in the last separation

Perhaps...
my most clever line to your question, could be summed up this way:

how do you make love stay ???

true love,
never leaves us
it is the dance,
we do
that old dance
The Dance of Sadness
iT iS deep inside
iT iS magical
iT iS the old memories
of what once was
and, already is

it always has been there
buried under the pain
of the last parting

trouble is
that the "pain" of "re_starting"
is, often, more painful
than, when the original dance
came to its end.

And yet,
it is a risk
we must take....

we do this, to be that
and, to have,
it all again ...

it is,
that love,
that stays with us forever

*****************************

SUMMARY:

You, asked me,
"how do you make love stay?"

Rope...
you give them plenty of rope,
and, hope they do NOT hang themselves

you allow, them, to be them
and, they allow, you, to be you
and, if per chance,
you find each other
all is, as, all can be, wUnder_FULL again

there's a tree outside my front door
it's there for a reason
i hang, all my troubles, out there
i do NOT bring them inside

i give, the best, i can
all of me, and, hold nothing back

i eXchange, only, with those
who are ready, willing, and, able
to do, the same, sort of thing

i love, always, and, in all ways
the best i can
it is NEVER a requirement
they love me back

i do NOT believe in unconditional love
especially, in a 3D world
everything in lower vibrations
has conditions

low energetic exchange-is dismissed

high energetic exchange-is welcomed

if someone treats me poorly
it is NOT necessary to love them
it is necessary only
to release, and, forgive them
and, let them go
to, send them some energy
that points them
in the direction of
good light and pure love

i am a deep well,
but, NOT one,
that will be drained.

i strive to create good conditions,
that express love, in it's totality

i look for another,
who is already doing the same thing

i give space, and, i expect space

i let another be, authentically them, i do NOT change others

i expect another, to let me be, authentically, be me

i respect the free_will of choice

i am open the change

living in love, with love
is win-win, and
appreciation, caring, kindness, and, thoughtfulness
are the 4 pillars, that hold it ALL up

i give willingly, and
share what i can
within reason
yes, i do utilise my mind, as, well, as, my heart

i do NOT look for a "free_ride"
nor, do i expect a "free_ride"...
free, oft times, has the highest of hidden cost
i invest into the things i do, by giving it, the best i can

i look for someone
who can be the driver
and, be the passenger too
it gets tiring
being only, the driver

i look into the mirrors
that are presented to me
and, see, very deeply
what they show me

i look very deeply into the eyes
that are presented to me
and, see, that they have a heart
and, it is already, at home

where, i see, no heart
i try to help them see mine

i look deeply, to find, the golden strings
the threads of connection
the ones
that once before
a long time ago
where a stitch in many times
are part of a grand tapestry
we wove together before
and, realise, it is possible
to pick up the strings
exactly, where we left of
and, we do it
together, in love

i push only, when two people
are pushing on the same side
or, are on the same direction

i pull only, my share, of any load

i expect another, will pull, their share

albeit, there will be times
when, i do all the pulling
and, there will, be times
they do all the pulling
but, it is those times
they will do, or, i will do
because, we are doing it
in love -- and, the other
truly needs us, and
both of us, are in our hearts
perhaps, that's compassionate love
the knowing, that, at all times
it is NOT possible, for another
to bring equal measures

I search for a banquet
hoping, we do NOT bring,
all the same things to the table
that there will be living, loving, and, learning- expansion/and, growth

i believe, a life shared
is never halved, but it doubles

i get up expecting a good day
and, generally get it

i do nice things for others
willing to put, their needs, and, desires
ahead of my own, however, i am NOT anyone else's fool
albeit, i am a silly old fool, who understands that journey, quite well

i avoid people, full of "wants"...
if they can NOT handle their own life
i know, it will become me
playing a baby_sitter

needs must be met, & desires fulfilled
those who want stuff
those who need you, only to fill, their desires
and, once, you do, they are gone
i avoid those people

To live a happy, and, joyful life...
it is only important
that needs are met
and, desires are fulfilled
and, that leaves NOTHING to want for

i love to surprise people
i am NOT big
on giving, on giving days
as, i believe, everyday
is a day to give

i do NOT give to get, nor, expect to get
so, i am rarely let down

if someone takes, and, leaves
i bless that moment
for in it, the taking, is stopped
the draining, is NO more
sure, i count my losses
calculate & learn from my lesson
and, let it go --
I release it, and, forgive it
and, be thankful
it is less draining NOW
that it has stopped
and, it is good
since, it can exist NO more
and, i celebrate my freedom

i send things,

that make them "hOWL" with laughter

or....make them curious
or....make them happy
or....make them ponder/or think

actually, in truth; i send them things
that are reflective of me,
and, my world

in one line --

it is, to be, and, reflect me, as, best i can

and, if, per_chance

they see me, as, i truly am
then, all, will be, as, all should be

together
the two of us
will always be more, rather than, ever be less

together
the two of us
might weave golden strings
through the higher mind & higher heart of one another
so, that, when we do show up
they will know, and, i will know
they will see, and, i will see
and, they will sense me, and, i will sense them
deep inside
that we both will know
who we are, and, be glad
that we have returned
to pick up the threads

Perhaps, then, The Dance with Sadness,
will truly come to its end.
where the pain, of starting again,
is less, than, the memory
of the pain involved, in the last separation

Perhaps...my most clever line to your
question, could be summed up this way:

how do you make love stay ???

true love, never leaves us
it is the dance, we do
that old dance
The Dance of Sadness
it's deep inside
it's magical
it's the old memories
of what once was
and, already is
it always has been there
buried under the pain
of the last parting
trouble is
that the "pain" of "re_starting"
is, often, more painful
than, when the original dance
came to an end.

And yet, it is a risk
we must take....
we do this, to be that
and, to have, it all again ...

it is,
that love,
that stays with us forever


Be a piece of peace ---

Susan Lynne Schwenger
AKA The eXchanger

AKA Wassenakoshka Anang
~ Wassenakoshka Gisiis Kwe
which translates into English as: Bright Shining Star
~ Bright Shining Sun Woman

AKA ~Kit'si'nu
(She is bright like the sun,
like the stars)

 

Buried Deep Within My Heart

In times, long ago
In lands that lie, so far away
i sat, and, I watched
As you often sailed away

Those times together
And those we have been apart
I keep the magic of you
Buried safe in my heart

From this life to that life
I have searched far, and wide
Missing you, coming up empty
Without you by my side

Those times, we spent together
Make up for those spent apart
I can always uncover the magic
Its buried deep in my heart

The memories of time spent together
Creates a sunny hue
I know, you will find me
My bright light, it will shine through

Alone in this moment
You are still close to my heart
Finding my way back to you
Will be as if we never did part

Will i ever find you through
This life of strange swirls
So,we will reconnect with each other
Like a fine string of matched pearls

My heart it still fondly remembers
What my mind could never erase
Memories of time spent together
Nothing else can replace

Be a piece of peace ---

Susan Lynne Schwenger
AKA The eXchanger

AKA Wassenakoshka Anang
~ Wassenakoshka Gisiis Kwe
which translates into English as: Bright Shining Star
~ Bright Shining Sun Woman

AKA ~Kit'si'nu
(She is bright like the sun,
like the stars)

 

"you are what you choose to allow, NO MORE, NO LESS"
- susan lynne schwenger

 

"you teach to learn, you learn to teach"
- susan lynne schwenger

 

"Love is, the end result" - susan lynne schwenger

 

"when the student is ready, the teacher is NO longer necessary"
- susan lynne schwenger

 

"a real teacher will tell you, the real teacher is the student"
- susan lynne schwenger